Hi Ola! Welcome!
I'm in the same situation that you are. I have had anxiety for over 20+ years and it's affected a ton of things in my life and made me not do things that I would normally love to be able to do.
I too feel the same way and I am afraid to fail, but over the years of dealing with this, at this point in my life I'm 45 now I'm just sick of letting my (bad) mind ruin me.
Don't let that happen to you, you are only 29. Just do what you love to do and don't let your (bad) mind stop you.
You can do it! I have done things since I started the school that I never thought I could do. We are here to give you support and we will be here everyday to keep you going!